to my best

If u read my blog
please don't get offended.

I can never say those things to you.
just let me let it out for once
and please act like u know nothing bout my blog.

again to u my best friend

U always thought u have many many many mask so that no one will know the real you.
but I know u.
u're nothing but a mere book to my eyes.
I know how u act with each type of people.
I know the real u.
I know who u like.
I know how u think of other people. *except how me to u*
I know.
I really know.



But do u know me?
Have u ever try to know me?
Do u know how I always act in front of u is nothing but a mere mask?

SORRY.
MIANHAE.
but I always want u to know u are my dearest bestest friend.
*I am still straight. thank you very much*

more and more and more junks

I HATE U WHO ALWAYS GET PEOPLE ATTENTION WHEN U CRY, WHEN U SPEAK, WHEN U LAUGH.

I really am dissappointed when I cry in public *better, around my friends in public* yet no one there to comfort me.

I'm not really hoping anyone to care about me a lot but I'm speechless when I know they don't even take a glimpse of me.


ENVY. ENVY. ENVY.
I REALLY ENVY U
YET U NEVER REALIZE WHAT U HAVE AND U NEVER BE GRATEFUL FOR WHAT U HAVE

u know what. I love u a lot. U are my bestest friend. I don't know what u think of me, but to me u're the greatest no matter what. but yeah tbh this is for u my dearest bestest friend.

more rants

currently in a huge crush with CNU
glasses, huge bunny teeth, not so long neck
yet charming to me.
kkkk~ sorry Taecyeon

currently in love
yet I will tell nobody
I'm not like other girls who could share things with their friends
I'm afraid that nobody will care
I'm always thinking all people have bigger problems than me
so I don't think I should talk to them about my *not important* problems
I rather listen to them
even if I can do none to help them


yes. I am paranoia.
I ain't gonna tell nobody

my blog is just a pail of my rant*junk*
I ain't hoping anyone read this

-yes, I can't write diaries. I type it.-

yep. just a great day

happy for SJC and SMANSA-DC
I'm proud being one of u guys
only 3 things that can make me stay "there"
and both of u is 2 of those three

just a few days ago, a person can know how I really feel and how I really am
it scares me but some part of me is relieved.

but no one seems to care though.

yea. i'm not just regularly not perfect unfortunately
i'm just a piece of trash *orfat myb*
who no one will realize
no one cares
even to throw it away




know what?
I'm afraid of death
but I'm more afraid of living unwanted