hahhahaha doing it again

since I started high school my romance part just go numb.
I can feel none.
except for cnu

cnu cnu cnu
I don't know why I love this guy, maybe his broad shoulder? his body proportion? his smile?
not really.
When I see him, I see my ONE

that's weird because I might never met him

but I have a strong feeling I'll meet him somehow, maybe not now, maybe when I'm already finish university, maybe when I worked somewhere, maybe when I have children, maybe when I have many grandchildren, maybe in the afterlife... I don't know when.. But I feel I'll  meet him... well only God knows..

ok, back to reality. yea, my heart really go numb somehow.. I can love, but I can't be heartbroken :/ I know he liked my good friend, but I'm not hurt. Maybe I became those idiots in love?

well again, only God knows.

whom happiness do I always wish for?